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does anyone have good news to share? [21 May 2005|05:35pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

So i havent written in a long time first off i will graduate 2 weeks from today! and in 5 days ill be done with school. Im actually kind of upset right now nothing has been going right everytime i get excited about something i get let down hence the reason for the subject. reasons are as follows first was Prom, prom is very important to a girl especially in her last year of school. I wanted frank to come and 6 months ago we thought he could then some stuff came up and he couldnt make it. i was ok with that because i still had my graduation. Frank had arranged it so that he would be able to come home that weekend to be at my graduation. So i was excited couldnt wait to see him he was going to be able to meet my grandparents from alabama and my real father whom i havent seen since i was 5. moving on so a week ago he calls me and says Jennifer has a wedding for him to go to with her on the day of my graduation. and since she is his current girlfriend im the one to get canceled on. Then since my Grad Party is on June 11th he again wont be able to make it, i guess karma is trying to get me back. So then i start thinking ok one thing that wont get messed up is my 18th birthday the day he and i have been talking about for a long time. well i mention it to him in reference of i hope youll be here for that he says well since im now on an every 3 week come home i will be home the 25th and not the 30th so now he will miss my 18th birthday. 5 days after my birthday im supposed to leave for cedar point, i wont be back until November so at least i know there is one person who should be happy about this considering she doesnt have to worry about us seeing each other for a long time.I should mention the reason why im so bothered by this is because i really love him. as much as i want to get over him i cant i keep falling for him only to be the one getting hurt.

Why do i put myself through this.

My next issue is we finally got our yearbooks only to be told we cant pass them out until after the seniors graduate due to a stupid error....

I cant seem to get my pictures to work out for me right and my final grade depends on them.

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[12 May 2005|06:27pm]

Your Birthdate: June 30

Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness.

You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable.

You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words.

You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic.

You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller.

Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue.

There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work.

You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.

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Tired of............ [13 Mar 2005|05:45pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Wishing on falling stars

Waiting for everything to fal in place

My Kid / Brother


Missing great opportunities

Not Being Noticed

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Randomness stolen from Andrea [13 Mar 2005|05:42pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

[x] written something on your body
[x] made a wish
[x] tied your shoes
[ ] eaten cake
[x] signed a contract
[ ] made something explode
[ ] directly and knowingly supported the pornography industry
[x] sent something through the US mail
[x] been angry
[x] gone a day without eating
[x] watched more than three different television shows
[x] had a conversation that you considered very personal and meaningful
[x] been intoxicated by any substance
[x] thrown up
[x] gotten paid
[x] gone a night without sleeping
[x] broken something you like by accident
[x] envied someone very strongly
[x] finished an artistic project
[x] hated
[ ] fucked
[x] made very loud noise
[x] made noise that was too loud
[x] given a thumbs up
[x] slept in a bed that is not, or has never been, your own
[ ] been drunk
[ ] smoked pot
[x] smoked a cigarette
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex
[x] rode in a taxi
[ ] been dumped
[ ] been fired
[ ] been in a fist fight
[ ] had a threesome - kissing or otherwise
[x] snuck out of my parent's house
[ ] been arrested
[x] made out with a stranger
[ ] stole something from your job
[ ] went on a blind date
[x] lied to a friend
[ ] had a crush on teacher
[ ] been to europe
[x] skipped school

[ ] have a bf
[ ] have a gf
[x] like someone
[x] love someone
[x] feel loved
[x] feel lonely
[x] feel happy
[x] have a dog
[x] have your own room
[ ] listen to rap
[x] listen to rock
[ ] listen to soul
[ ] listen to techno
[ ] listen to reggae
[x] paint your nails
[x] have more than one best friend
[x] get good grades
[x] have slippers
[x] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner
[x] like the color blue
[x] like the color yellow
[ ] cyber
[ ] claim
[x] like to read
[x] like to write
[ ] have long hair
[x] have short hair
[x] have a cell phone
[ ] have a laptop
[x] have a pager

[x] ok
[x] bored
[x] happy
[ ] gay
[ ] bisexual
[x] straight
[x] white
[ ] black
[x] short
[ ] undecided on your height
[ ] tall
[ ] grounded
[x] sick
[x] lazy
[x] single
[x] taken
[x] talking to someone
[x] IMing someone
[ ] scared to die
[x] tired
[x] sleepy
[x] annoyed
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] on the phone
[ ] in your room
[ ] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[x] in your pjs
[x] ticklish
[x] listening to music
[ ] homophobic
[ ] racist
[ ] sexist

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awww........... [04 Mar 2005|08:15pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

So i have to be up early tomorrow!!!!!! my old neighbor called and asked me to babysit her 2 kids:0( it sucks because this weekend i was supposed to spend time with my family but now i cant be with them tomorrow. Although i will be making some extra cash to pay my phone bill so i guess its cool i miss Frank alot and really want to spend some time with him but such is life. you cant always get what you want though you try so hard lol.............. The Freaking cat is driving me nuts shes like meowing like crazy i hate the spring because of meowing cats!!!!!!!!!!!! its not the cute meow its the groaning whiney MEOOOOOOOOOOOOWW growl..... so now that ive ranted i am going away have a great night XOXO

*Accept the things you cant change, and learn to change the things you can*
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Money Money Money................Money [19 Feb 2005|09:45pm]
[ mood | naughty ]

I am worth $1,379,032.00 on HumanForSale.com

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[17 Feb 2005|11:32am]
Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself
It takes a couple of drinks
Sex Drive 65.8%
A fool for love, but not always
Knows the other body type like a map
Gayness 85.7%
Repressed, are we?
Fucking Sick64.6%
Dipped into depravity
You are 53.71% pure
Average Score: 72.6%
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Wont You Be My Valentine...................? [14 Feb 2005|06:46pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Happy Valentines Day everyone. i hope you are all making the best of your day.

~Showers are fun lol~

i spent the night at jaymes last night that was so fun we ordered shaun of the dead it was so odd........... Jayme and JJ fought alot its so cute they hate each other yet they love each other then they hate each other :0) i talked to frank for a half hour that was amusing he snapped at me and i got upset with him its all good now :0) we had rallys for dinner it was almost closing time so the food was kinda inky we know better now it was fun spending time with her like we used to i love being with my friends my favorite part is laughing the laughs are what gets you through really shitty times :0)

~I met a new boy his name is Fernando i met him through a forum i go on he seems really nice he lives in Ontario~

My dad bought me chocolate it was really cute :0)

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[14 Feb 2005|06:45pm]
If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?

(Now post this in your LJ and find out what mine would be.)
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Color [12 Feb 2005|11:35pm]
[ mood | tired ]

i dyed my hair like a week ago i got my income tax check and im happy :0)

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fun games to play while in the shower [09 Feb 2005|05:10pm]
[ mood | amused ]

[01] Reply and I will write something about you.
[02] I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
[04] Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.

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Another Turning Point.......A Fork Stuck In The Road.......... [07 Feb 2005|08:01pm]
[ mood | drained ]

Another turning point a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

This song just feels right........... Frank and I have decided that i need to stop reading Jens journal. Everything i read in her journal is a total contradiction of what he tells me. I dont know what to believe I love the guy so I wanna believe him. But what if im just setting myself up for disappointment yet again. I miss talking to him he said he misses me.... he also told me that he told Jen i was the best girlfriend he ever had and she wasn't to happy about it(i wasnt happy he told her that when i found out either). Frank told me when we broke up nothing was going to change except for the fact we werent going to be having sex anymore, we were still suppose to see each other but we dont i saw him a month ago the night we broke up.I'm so ready to be done with everything.... school living here all of it.....

I dont see why everyone thinks there is so much drama everyone has moved on..... GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!

It has been a long month...........

My friend Eric asked me out :0) i said no though because i dont want another relationship and he really isnt my type...........

Ugh.......... 69 days until im done with school

132 days until i leave for cedar point~ by the way i got the job i am officially an employee for cedar point :0)

Thank you everyone for being there when ive needed you :0)

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~YaY~ [02 Feb 2005|05:05pm]
[ mood | devious ]

the days are getting closer and im almost there soon ill say good bye and have no worries about looking back.

Laundry isnt fun :0)

I talked to frank last night that made me happy happy i really miss him hopefully we will see each other saturday morning providing he gets home early:0)

I cant wait to talk to ya'll XoXoXo

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My Smiles Have Stopped Fading Away..... [31 Jan 2005|03:51pm]
[ mood | content ]

Justin Mcleod gave me a ride home today i havent seen him in 3 years since he and Brad graduated hes changed alot i really miss my old friends.

Today I am feeling great school has been going well ive been on time and in classes for the last week this is good for me usually i miss like one day a week... granted my mom and i went shopping on friday instead of me going to vo-tech :0) i dont care i got new jeans and browsed for new clothes and jewelry as soon as my income tax checks come im going to pay off all my bills and debts and i will be using the rest for a major girls day out shopping spree all my chick friends are invited boys you can come too i guess :0) although you may get bored. I talked to frank a couple times this past weekend its still a little ankward but im feeling much better about alot. (i miss him i cant lie i love him too i just cant act on this for a while.)

I am at the point in my life to where i know what i want to do and i really dont want to screw up i know what i need to do and i know i have some obstacles to overcome to get to the point where everything will be the best i can make it.

I applied for a summer job at Cedar Point im so excited i want to get the job so i can move out of my house for a while and see what its like to be away from everything ive always known to be my salvation. i need a change of scenery and the chance wont always be there for me to take. im ready for new adventures. Once im out of High School i will be going to college to major in Art/Bussiness and minor in Photography or vice versa.
Its going to be weird at first but its something i have to experience it's something ive always wanted.

SENIORS ARE OUT IN 75 school days:0)

Spring Break 56 days including weekends!

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here ya go. [30 Jan 2005|05:23pm]
[ mood | creative ]

i hope u like it. i finally got time 2 do it. :o) theres still a couple things i wanna fix but its really making me mad right now so.. ill fix it later.

i love u danielley!!

love always jayme
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Case Closed [27 Jan 2005|03:01pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

im done with the drama im done with the pain i dont want to think about the past 3 months for a while..... i wish the best of luck to you all thanks jayme you helped alot thanks drew for helping too yesterday was fun. im off to the mall with my mom :) getting into my old routine of shopping :) i wish everyone luck in their new endeavors until i feel the need to write again x's and o's

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ugh........... pass the bucket [25 Jan 2005|03:23pm]
[ mood | nauseated and moody ]

i still feel like shit only now its worse i dont want people getting hurt by how i feel im already hurting enough thats why i write it out ...... today is not good im lonely and i need someone all of my friends are busy and it sucks i dont know anything i feel so bad i want so badly to get drunk but i know that i dont want to do that because its just a quick fix im achey and i feel sick i have tremors(body shakes)which is making it worse im not trying to be a drama queen i just take everything to heart even shit i shouldnt........... i want to scream and i cant i want to leave and i cant i want i want i want but i cant i cant i cant GD FnA growl............

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[24 Jan 2005|06:55pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

You scored as Alcohol. Woooooooooo man. Party on! But you better chill out after you get outta college, cuz you don't want to be an asshole alcoholic; an embarassment to the family. Never drink and drive, and think about the damage alcohol does to your liver.
















What's your ideal drug?
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hammer to the heart [24 Jan 2005|05:20pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable and used ]

~alot has been going on lately alot that i have been trying to just let go. i thought i could handle breaking up i thought i could handle frank and jen trying to date and even them being "together" but i cant its tearing me apart. i feel as if ive screwed up i gave him everything i had i tried being everything he wanted and i wasnt good enough. i did everything i could but that only got me fucked (literally) i mean i guess i should have moved on already it has been 2 weeks since we broke up so i guess if hes happy and hes with someone and doing all the stuff he enjoys i need to do the same.....but i dont want to.... i didnt want to give up hope that we would try again but maybe i should.... im sick of being hurt and having my heart bruised before its broken.... i dont know what i want right now but i know i dont want to have these feelings i know that he and i need to sit and talk and i want to get these words he said out of my head ~how could i ever be with anyone else?~ ~i love you so much~ how could you tell me these things? if you didnt mean them if you did you could be with me.... but you dont want to? i am so mad but i still love him and truly want him still.....

Maybe candy was right she said i was used and thats honestly how i feel

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i swear i didnt copy and paste [23 Jan 2005|06:04pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

You Are 25 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

This is really funny jen took this quiz and so i wanted to try it i didnt think i would get the same score but yea..... Worked 8 hours today it sucked big time i was teased about the way i talk i have been trying to be more formal in conversations as one way to prepare for college interviews and my manager was like talk slang go to my hood and talk formal lol growl....... today was a good day i guess
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